Save Buddah

Hate is not overcome by Hate; by Loving Kindness alone is Hate appeased. This is an eternal law. -THE BUDDAH

Ey, i tried.

Another one bites the dust

another one goes down
because of grief
inflicted by a failed relationship.

i thought God made us stronger than that.
we should of course work in harmony with others
but to be dependent on them?
i don't think that was the plan.

poor kyle conner
but then agian, poor karina
that's such a heavy burden to have on your heart.
to know you were the last thought in the boy's mind.
that you were the reason he took too much.

i'm sorry.
i wish you both well, the living and the fallen.

An honest mistake

By george, i've got it.
It's not that i'm jealous, or was ever jealous, i felt like shit and continue to have doubts because you made me feel inadequate. As if i wasn't a good friend, or an adequate human being. I can't find another word for it, because i've finally figured it out! There's nothing an arian hates more than feeling inadequate.

We're gonna be famous- OCEAN CITY

taste the air
on our moonlit drive
to ocean city
dont ask the time
cuz i ain't got the time
ain't it a pity
the airs calamity
electric carousel
floating on the sea
love is free
on our moonlit drive
to ocean city

I don't know why
You waste your time with pity
When you could fly
And change your life in the city

here i stand
shackled head to toe
in the country
and i cant breathe
because my heads asleep
and i'm lazy
the summer leaves
all of them for sale
except for me
my hair is free
and i can dream
of ocean city

I'm done posting my complicated shit here.

Finding comfort in the uncomfortable

it's like elementary school now. You know?
hanging out with people you like, but don't really wanna hang out with
and answering qustions in every class because nobody else will
and giving idiotic commentary to almost everything..

though an awkward situation, i feel at home. Welcome back to school, kids.

When my earth shook.

Your world makes my heart speed up.
The anxiety of being serious and correct unnerves me.
I wanted to be comfortable with you but eventually, i wore out; i just couldn't do it.
it felt so unnatural- my heart palpitating with every word and long pause. I wanted to prove to you i was worthy. I wanted to prove to myself i can make anyone open up. I wanted to be the savior. All i ended up doing was giving myself a seizure. I cried that night, in my mother's arms, wishing i could explain fully why my heart hurt so bad. But of course i couldn't so i just shook more. Shook because i was furious, shook because i was betrayed, shook because i honestly loved you, shook because i would have never released one of our shared secrets, shook because that's what your world did to me.
Tomorrow, no matter what, i'm going to talk to you. I don't care if you don't want to. Because i know, you do want to. Your Scorpian pride gets in the way but my arien persistance won't let you get away.